Friday, February 23, 2024

DOSTADNING - Death Cleaning

I know that many of you still get the "ick" factor when

the topic of death comes up, and I am 7 years older 

than I was when I wrote this post, so the years are 


After the last few months, dealing with my friend's passing 

and helping her daughter, I am even more aware of 

 the problem facing so many, and the resistance of so many

to even acknowledge there is a problem.

Our society and it's love of commercialism and "things"

has only exploded thru social media and it's influencers.

How often have you succumbed and purchased 

more useless stuff? 

I'm reposting this link to hopefully reach a few more folks, 

and spare their heirs the hurt and stress 

that I've witnessed far too many times.

I have friends today asking why are you purging,

it's your kids problem. Keep whatever you want.

To me they are saying, I don't love my family enough,

to spare them the mess I'll leave. 

The deep hurt and pain is real.

Your loved ones suffer far more than just your loss. 

I've seen it too many times.

I refuse to be that kind of mom.


Tuesday, February 20, 2024

Continuing On

So I've mentioned working on my friend's home.
She passed the end of October and her middle daughter and I
have spent countless hours/ days dealing with the aftermath
of a loved one's passing.
I've been purging a lot the last few years, as you know.
 As I aged I worried about what I was leaving behind 
for my family to deal with.
The situation recently has only sped up
 my process and dedication.
The difficulties we encountered are too much to go into here;
but in this process I edited out more of my 
own pieces and stored them for sale in April
and some I just gave away.
I was persuaded, and I'm grateful that I agreed,
 to take this wall unit for my office/den.
The funny, ironic thing is I spent years dusting and arranging displays
in this unit, for I cleaned house for my friend for many years. 
I met her the first time I came to clean for her.
By the third visit we were joined at the hip. 

Adding the units created a 75% rearrangement 
and purge of the room.
A huge table, glass cabinet, 7 shutters 
and wingback chair left the room
and I love it all so much more! 

This wall stayed the same..for now. 
I'm debating the leaning bookshelf

I'm working on the glass area this afternoon,
filling with blk/wht photos of passed relatives and a few 
keepsake treasures from them. 
The little curtain is hiding some ugly paperwork stuff 
till it finds a new home or I may just keep it.



Tuesday, January 23, 2024

Mat Is Done

I should call this a streaming mat.
It was made while I watched Dr Finley on Acorn
and then the first two recent episodes of True Detective. 
The FR has a lot of grey, brown, cream and yellow. 

Mostly I made it to use up yarn that had sat around for years,
Would get peanuts at a sale, and it keeps me from being idle. 
Too dang cold to do much else but at least we've gotten rain. 



Sunday, January 21, 2024

Weaving 2

After seeing what I'd been up to, 
Hannah thought she might like some woven coasters
 and picked out this yarn. When I finished the first one 
I could tell she wasn't crazy about it,
so I offered to go yarn hunting again yesterday. 

This won't be a loss. I went back in and opened up 
the ending and I will splice more cording and continue on and
turn this into a mat, or a small rug, hehe as I bought quite a bit of yarn.
She remarked that she wanted the next set to be
 in the same vein as a mat that I was working on for myself.

This one 
Colors are muted yellow, ivory and very dark grey.
I'm loving these as they are super sturdy, not floppy and soft. 
Perfect projects while couch streaming shows late into the night. 

I stood in the store and sent her pics of three color combos
and we settled on this one. I want to complete my mat first
 to avoid yet another Incomplete project. 
Her coasters will be tan, med grey, and an off white tweed blend.

Many years ago, I went with friends and our kids 
to a basket weaving class.
The adults liked it so much we continued on with adult classes 
and eventually met once a week to weave splint style baskets,
after dropping our kids off at school. 
I made maybe 20 all together but only have maybe 10 still.
Made all the painted except for white ones.

Some I painted, some I left natural.
I am by no means an artist in this medium, 
more of a crafter, but it passes the time and 
I'm making useful things.

I only kept one that I made 27 years ago using reed and raffia and 
even though it has uneven flaws (star points)  I am very proud of that one.

I'd love to make more, but it involves wet work,
 soaking reed and raffia and my aging hands
 would not fare well with that. 
It is basically the same wrap/joining process.

My gas bill arrived today.
It is now double what it has ever been before.
Hope those executives and shareholders are enjoying
 the huge profits and dividends they're receiving on the backs
of low income folks.

My thermostat is set at 68, so doesn't run all the time,
and my downstairs is freezing cold.
I'm wearing sweaters, bundled in blankets and wooly socks.
Three sets of comforter and blankets on the bed upstairs. 
Wore a sweater to sleep last night,
and paying 326.00 for the privilege.

Latest study showing enormous corporate profits are the cause
 behind inflation and gas prices, food prices.
They have no plans to reduce profits - 
and most just gave executives raises,
 and larger golden parachutes.
Did you know other countries have laws in place to prevent this,
along with laws against these mega mergers that destroy competition
allowing even more increases?
 we're screwed 

But I bet they sleep well.



Wednesday, January 17, 2024


It's cold here, though not as cold as it is for some of you.
You can still see idiot tourists in flip flops and t-shirts trying to look cool,
but looking ridiculous. 

I'm hunkered down in the studio, loving my floors, and my cleaned up space,
and playing with materials that have sat around for ages.

I'm also avoiding chores I just don't feel like doing,
and trying to get my studio mojo back like I once had. 

Back in the days when I had booths, or taught classes, I would work in the 
studio all day and into the wee hours for weeks on end. 
Now? eh...

I seem to hop around between the purge saga, daily chores and 
napping...lots of napping. Walter has taken to sleeping along my side and hip
 while I nap on the couch. I'm pretty sure it is messing up my shoulder,
but he is soooo happy there.

Tonight he kept me company in the studio,
 while I rewatched Guess Who's Coming To Dinner for the ? time,
I wove this little basket. 

Now it is 1 am and I am wide awake and have screwed
up my sleep once more.

Doesn't help that today will be 24 years since my dad died.
My brother and SIL had left the hospital for the night,
 and I crawled up beside him in the bed 
where he had lain unconscious for nearly a day. 
I told him it was just the two of us alone now,
and he could go.
He never took another breath, and I felt his spirit, 
his soul, leave the room. 
The nurses told me it was not my imagination.
They had witnessed it themselves many times.
DJR was my rock, my one true certainty in the world.
I thought I had found it in one other person in my life,
but it was not true. He was not true.

I'm 70 years old and still wish I had my dad to turn to;
to help with hard choices, to gather wisdom and advice,
and to hear once more all the lame dad jokes.

Wow, I'm all over the place tonight...

"Walter, it's time for bed."



Tuesday, January 9, 2024

Madam Alexander Dolls

Some of you may not know that a dear friend of mine 

passed away recently. 

I am still in the process of helping my friends daughter 

deal with the estate, and this weekend we unboxed 

dozens of Madam Alexander dolls still new in box.

We have the complete Wizard of OZ set including Dorothy's house 

and hot air balloon! Also Peter Pan and so much more.

If you, or any of your friends, collect these please 

get in touch with me ASAP, before they go to auction, 

by leaving a comment here.

These collections are incredible! and I don't even 

collect dolls, but as we unboxed, we were all squealing

with how adorable they are.

It's probably a good thing I do not have a granddaughter,

especially the Oz set


The photo is lousy but gives you an idea of how many 

we still have. One gal bought many individual ones over the weekend,

but we kept the larger collections...

I know it seems silly but I want them to find good homes. : D

Thank you



Friday, January 5, 2024

It's Been Awhile

Those of you who follow on IG know that right before Christmas, 
and I mean 7 days before Christmas, my entire upstairs was torn apart
as I had wood floors installed. I only waited 30 years. I LOVE them.
I've got everything back where I want it after another major purge. 
It may look almost the same, but it's not.
I have a rug down temporarily for Walter to lie on
 as the large upholstered chair is gone.
I'm getting a new fluffy bed for him this weekend. 

That wicker trunk you see under the half wall opens up to the left
 and right and raises up to lap height.
It stores all my years of patterns and ideas,
and also the new papers for my recent painting obsessions.
Before, all those things were down the hall in cupboard. Now
they are right at my fingertips.  
I love it. It was outdoor furniture from Target in 22.
Bought on clearance. 

I'm working on the walls near the apothecary 
and down the adjacent hallway to guest rooms. 

This is the only room that still has the most "stuff".
I've purged so much everywhere else, and continue to do so.
I'm determined to spend the majority of my time right here
for the foreseeable future.
The rest will be cuddled up with Walter and a good book.

And for those who wonder,

Yes, it is always this organized. I've been doing this 

kind of thing my entire life. You cannot imagine

 the amount of things that are stored in this tiny room, 

I miss all my blogger friends. 
IG has it's place but I delete more and more influencer accounts.
I never followed that many to begin with and only view maybe 25 
regularly anyway. There are several I only know from IG,
 and they inspire me, so I'll stay just for them.

So many women jumping on to make money, that's fine,
but they're all hawking the same products,
 and now copying each other DiYs with no credit to the 
orig postee if you can ever figure it out.
Their homes look indistinguishable from each others
as they're all given the same dang furniture and 
Amazon links. Don't get me started on AG1 and home 
food delivery...hehe

Some will say it's my age, but I don't think so.
This constant need to scroll endlessly is well...
enough said by me..

"Fasten your seat belts, it's going to be a bumpy ride"
2024 could well be the last year that we view as the year that 
changed it all. 

Hold tight to your loved ones.
I'm hoping to make it at least to 85.
If I see the kids as I do now, about 3-4 times a year,
that means I'll see them at a maximum just 60 more times.
Hard realizations.

Pray for Peace.




Wednesday, October 4, 2023

They're Here!

 %$#* &^

That is how I feel about this.

Not politics

Not stupid ignorant people

Not the yahoos I've been dealing with for months

over SS and insurance issues.


Those damn AEDES mosquitos have hit Las Vegas.

You remember the ones that bit me 18 times in CA;

caused me to have massive welts and 

rashes all over that developed into Skeeter Syndrome.

Skeeter syndrome is diagnosed when you have a

 strong reaction to a mosquito bite

You may see a large area of swelling, soreness, 

redness, and itching or pain at the location of the bite.

 Such a reaction can develop within hours of the bite,

 and it may last for weeks

(yep it's real).

Took me nearly four months for the last spot to heal and I have scars

and discolored skin where they were.

Just when the weather has cooled and I NEED to hit the yard

for cleanup. sigh

I wore long pants and shirt in CA and they still got my hands, face

and crawled up my pant leg. Their nickname is ankle biters.

It made the news when the Urgent Cares here starting seeing folks 

with unexplained welts and rashes.

When I told my GP  back in July about what had happened to me,

 she had never heard of them, but a new Dr who was shadowing her that day 

said "oh yeah they're awful!" She was from CA.

So be warned if they come to your area. 

The latest outbreak is NV and in AZ

You can't see them - teeny tiny, can't hear them, and won't feel the bite at all.

Within a few hours though OH the itch and then you scratch a few times,

and I swear it "Activates it" somehow and you're in for it.

Now in some tropical areas this creature from hell causes dengue etc.

I do not believe that is the case in US

From a google site...

They usually bite you on the ankles and elbows. 

The only way to differentiate between a dengue mosquito bite

 and a normal mosquito bite is that that 

a dengue mosquito bite is much redder and itchy

 compared to a normal mosquito bite.

Aedes aegypti is a small, dark mosquito with a white violin

 shaped marking on its back and banded legs

Aedes aegypti has the ability to transmit dengue fever,

 chikungunya, yellow fever, and other viruses.

So be careful please.


Saturday, September 16, 2023

See update of last post

 Please see my update on my last post.

I need to double check these posts more and read out loud

to catch such silly errors. I apologize.

I am fine - I've already made it to 70 and plan/hope to 

be around a lot longer.

Thursday, September 14, 2023

Studio work

 The last week or so I have been taking Louise Fletcher's

Find your Joy Taster Class

It was tremendous fun and also thought provoking.

This free "taster " course is to introduce you to Louise

if you don't already know her, and then many students go on to take

her year long course which I hear is tremendous. 

I won't go into the object of each lesson just show

you the fun projects and the experimentation I enjoyed.

These were quick mark making studies.

The paper is sectioned off with tape and

 you paint the entire study then remove tape.

My tape stuck a little but it won't matter when I turn into note cards.

Below was using foreign materials and foreign to you techniques and tools. 
I sketched with pencil onto a wood plank,
finger painted the background, finger-painted metallic inks onto deli paper
and then collaged. This was far outside the class idea, as I watched everyone 
else but well, it's where the path took me.  

Trying out collaging metallic deli papers

Very much outside my usual, but 
then that is where the exploration comes in.
We all get stuck in our "box" and repeat
the familiar and comfortable.

For me, these classes are not for 
finished art work so much as educating my own 
eye and techniques that I am unfamiliar with, 
or even better, uncomfortable with.
This process then applies to many aspects of my life.

My life veered off radically the past couple decades,
and I've taken a ride I never could have imagined. 
I've hung on for dear life, and managed to 
educate, graduate and watch my kids soar onto new heights.
They are in loving relationships, highly successful careers, and 
are just good people. 
Becoming ill threw me for a loop, I will admit,
but 6 years later I am still here, and was shocked to hear my primary Dr
tell me at my last visit that she wasn't sure that I would see 70.

I need to amend this : What I should have written was
that the Dr had not been sure that I would see 70 
because of how ill I was. Poor sentence structure-my bad.
I can see why several folks thought my Dr was awful- she's not - she's wonderful 
and I am  fortunate that we have such a great rapport. 

All my life, since I was first cutting up paper samples my dad brought home
when I was in elementary school,
I have turned to creative pursuits for my sanity and escape.
Paper, fabric, paint, bead, hooking, knitting, home design...
Art therapy has seen me through it all.

I'm still at it.  

Monday, August 28, 2023

Rainbow Bridge Day


Eisenhower (Howie)

 Howie   Justice

Liberty (Libbey)


Saturday, August 19, 2023

Rainbow and UH OH

Yesterday was this gorgeous rainbow
Full side to side and a double! 

And the...

Looks like my kiddos and I are both in for some 
"Weather" with a capital W.

Constant boomies, and alerts on radio,
tv and phones.

Here in Vegas many of the houseless
live in massive storm drains and the local 
emergency folks have been trying to move them
 and all their belongings ( including furniture etc) 
out of there as quickly 
as possible so that their belongings 
don't wash out and block 
small drains. Teams have been going all
 over the city clearing drains of debris,
as much as they can.
Even a light sustained rain here can cause serious
flooding, and foolish tourists and idiot locals
do NOT heed warnings and have to be rescued
or worse. 
When I first moved here in the 70's, it was common
 for many of the parking garages to flood entirely,
and even grand hotels to have dripping water 
during storms. All the streets flooded 
but decades of building water retention basins 
solved a good bit. The basins were used as parks and 
soccer fields. Win Win 

The LA folks are also worried about high winds
and mud slides. My neighbor has a dangerous, 
nearly dead, pine tree that concerns me.
It could take off the front of my house.
We shall see.
Hopefully the concern is a reaction to the horrors
of HI and BC.
Let's see what all the climate deniers 
have to say about a tropical storm almost in Vegas?
Although it will no longer be a tropical here, but it 
will be the first to hit CA since 1939.

I tried unsuccessfully to load a video of Walter 
on here, but it is on my IG if you love him.

Stay safe - and Be prepared,
not just when emergencies loom,
but always, every day.  




Friday, August 4, 2023

Said it Best-

  I have loved these two for years

 Margaret and Helen

We've all read, listened, and watched 

the insanity for far too many years.

These two are saying what I have been ranting 

to anyone who will listen, but they are funnier than I,

which it makes it more frightening and 

important with all that is at stake. 

It's worth a read- honest 


Thursday, July 27, 2023



The birthday plans changed as I drove to LA so that
 I could attend bonus son Ivan's competition.
First night there Hannah and Nick went to a
 friends B-day party Barbie themed.
They went as Barbie and Oppenheimer

First two nights at Ben and Helene's 

Ben grilled a lovely meal and I was eaten alive (over 40 bites)
by these nasty mosquitoes that invaded CA-aedes - I'll spare you the photos.
In fact I had an allergic reaction called Skeeter syndrome.
It'll be awhile for swelling and infected areas to go away.

Bright and early Saturday after Ben prepared a lovely light breakfast
 we drove to Anneheim for Ivan's event.  
Ivan did great ( second from left),
but was disappointed at second place 

After event lunch at this smorgasbord place.
Many restaurants for takeout and then we reconvened to eat.
I love this photo of Ben and Ivan.
Best buds since jr high. 

That evening a takeout Chinese feast 

Are you grasping the gastronomy path 
we take when together?

 Then kids treated me
 to luxury suite at Mr C's Beverly Hills.

Comped Peach Bellinis to start
Walter and Hannah on one of two balconies.

In the room my favorite pizza caceo pepe, 
and mushroom, both wood fired.

Next day lunch with all-
Here Hannah, Ivan, and Ben

Ben,  Helene and Kevin, Ivan's boyfriend

Walter did great with his new just for the trip, pup cart. He loved it!!
It will totally change how we get out and about.
I highly recommend.
He felt safe and so no barking at strangers or dogs.
 Walter made best friends with security guard Julian. 

We also crammed in a little traditional Target run, 
a visit to Culver's terrific farmers market Saturday morning.
I am so envious of their farmers markets.
Hannah gave me a Taro reading that was freakishly spot on.

Breakfast at the coffee shop where
 Nick and Hannah had first date.

Then salt water pool date at Mr C's with her two besties
Heidi and Jenny.
These thirty somethings even played Marco Polo.
These three started a very cool writer's group
and all are doing great things, well, WILL
continue as soon as strike is over.

Walter enjoying our last morning.
Oh and yes this is dog friendly hotel.
A doggie area right near the front so we went up 
and out easily as needed.

Gorgeous landmark hotel and it turns out I stayed 
there the last day it was Mr C's. 
It was sold Monday to a large corp.
I sure hope they keep all the staff.
They were exceptional.

So this is 70

A wonderful visit with the most important people in my life.
I hate sharing any photos of me, as those of you who have been here
 since 2008 can attest. However it seemed to be a requirement for this post,
even with my swollen, red, arms and hands from those horrible bites. 
 It's an important milestone and although
I felt guilty for all the kids did for me, it was such a blessing this gift
of time we all shared. 
I gifted them each part one of my Story Worth. 
You saw the wrapped versions in a previous post. 
 I'm thinking that this next year I will 
search thru the years of blogs for some writings 
I am pleased with and add a few more gems
 to who Suzan Rennie was.

This was the bookmark I added to their books
One of my favorite photos of me at 24,
before I was no longer just Suzan Rennie.
oh so very long ago.