Saying Goodbye

A lovely guy came early this morning to pick up 

this table. Hannah had re-listed it for sale and this time

Bam! right away.

Slowly but surely my things are going 

away to new homes and making new memories.

As they were loading pieces onto the truck, 

I started weeping and Hannah my sweet girl

immediately understood why.

I got a tremendous buy on that table and

 bought it specifically for this house

26 years ago. I painted all the pieces

including the china cupboard that is now

also gone after the Oct sale.

So many memories took place 

around that table. Birthday parties,

holidays, my annual Christmas sit down

dinners for 12 friends,

and every night dinners when it was

still the four of us. 

So happy and grateful for our home 

and our family. 

Minutes after the buyer drove away,

I was saying goodbye to darling daughter and 

her loves Tom and David.

The tears then flowed some more.

I am so weary of saying goodbye.

Being forced to let go of loved ones 

and cherished keepsakes,

even though it is the process of life.

These two

"How lucky I am to have something

that makes saying goodbye so hard."  pooh

I Am Going To Miss

My garden

My porch

Rain on my tin roof

Especially rain on my roof....

Memories

26 years of them

Stepping forward into the unknown 

My daughter thinks it is exciting; 

a new adventure.

She's 28

At 66

 I'm finding it unsettling, nerve wracking,

and damn hard.

Maybe I'll find the adventure later on.

The way my life goes, 

I'll be Alice sliding down the rabbit hole,

butt upended with petticoats a flappin'.

Keep smiling

Z

It's Happening

Found this on pinterest

(no credit was given)

I fall into bed every morning, yep, morning

between 2-5am

exhausted, but then after strapping on

c-pap I cannot get to sleep.

But then I sleep in so it averages out.

So yes, I finally did get a c-pap.

The longest time used so far is 7 hours,

but that is deceiving as I am awakened

 multiple times during those hours.

But hey, I'm trying. 

I now have preliminary diagnosis

with both lung and heart issues.

The next round of Dr visits begins today

and will determine the next move.

Therefore the purge has reached epic proportions. 

Kids are coming in to help with large sale

the first weekend in OCT.

I have gone through the entire home,

 multiple times as I garner the will power

 to be ruthless during purging. 

Not knowing how much space I will

have to live in, or even what state NV or CA,

creates issues while trying to make decisions.

The area where I have struggled

is with studio supplies.

Will I ever use roving again?

How much fabric to keep?

I coveted those many army blankets I snagged

years ago but they take up so much space.

That is where many of you met me.

After the Where Women Create article 

and white wednesday studio tours.

https://oldgreymareprimitives.blogspot.com/2010/06/where-bloggers-create-ii.html

I find myself growling often.

GRRRRRRR

My pal Sue was over Saturday and sat in the 

heat in the garage with me and priced

 while I sorted and stacked.

AND

she brought cookies

This was so easy peasy for me to do with clients;

 I couldn't figure out why I was moving

slowly and with more difficulty.

Then it was pointed out to me duh..

you're sick and you have no idea if you 

will have a 1 or 2 bedroom 

a garage, a yard, a patio....

Your clients knew where they would be.

DUH

so I have to prep in five stages

1. Everything I'm sure I don't need 

goes to charity now or sale.

2. Assume/pray I will have a second space for studio,

via addtl bedroom or garage and select

 only those studio items and furniture

 for said space to fit into 10x10 area.

3. Once new space and financials are determined

jettison any remaining furniture via social media.

Stop worrying where kids will sleep if they visit me here.

They aren't worried- "whatever Mom"

(that's a tough one for me)

4. List home after 26 years for sale in early spring.

That's a toughie- love this house

5. Be thankful I have any kind of home and 

belongings as so many do not.

It's happening

Health issues

Financial finagling

Downsizing big time

Moving

I'm rolling down hill, picking up speed

It's happening.