Warning Not A Fun Post, But It Improves

The first week of September this saga began.

It's not over.

I'm still on oxygen.

Still having setbacks.

They still don't know.

I have a list of specialists I could/should see.

If I could afford to.

Since I was here last, I had another emergency

run. My Dr had prescribed symbicort for me on 

Monday morning 2 weeks ago.

My first dosage Monday evening, had me

feeling a little nervous.

Tuesday was 2 more doses, each one increasing

the nervousness and now I have a monster headache,

that continues for about 12 hours.

Wednesday's dosage gave me tremors,

scary, panic attack tremors that went on for hours.

So back to emergency.

I'm profoundly allergic to it.

Emergency doc says

"You should stop using" 

UH DUH!

My entire life I have avoided meds 

because of sensitivity,

and now I have various Drs prescribing this, that,

 and everything in their arsenal

to try and relieve symptoms.

I like the Drs, but no one knows exactly

 what is going on, so we're playing russian roulette.

Nearly 5 months now

I cannot care for my yard

I cannot clean

I see no one, go no where.

I've had to sleep on my couch for nearly 2 months.

I have yet to take down my Christmas tree!!!

For those who know me, follow me,

you know how organized I am, how tidy I am,

you know I'm miserable just looking around.

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

Now having said that, there are many

in the world truly suffering from horrific trials.

So I slapped myself upside the head,

took off my self pity mask,

and decided 

to don a positive beret.

Due to the craziness of the holidays I had not done

my annual donations. To be honest, I just plain

forgot due to my focus on me. Not good

I corrected that today.

10% of my income (which granted, is small)

each and every year.

You cannot help everything and everyone,

so you have to make tough choices.

Here's what I decided a few years back.

I select five from five groups.

Children

Environment 

Animal

Medical Research/ Facility

Positive Political Action

Deep breath, yes, I can still do those.

My world is back in balance

It does not matter that this is the growing pile

of items to be sold. It is 7 columns deep.

I drag my portable O/2 out to the garage

 for five minutes and grab boxes, close my heart to 

the doubt and throw on the pile.

Sale in March

BTW Any American Girl collectors out there?

I have the retired Christmas tree/ornaments in orig box for sale.

Hannah never set it up, she didn't even open all the packages.

None of my local gals desire, so leave me a comment,

and I'll get back to you with pics and info.

I'm selling for half of the prices listed on E-bay.

It's all good 

Well no, there is a lot VERY wrong

in our world but just for now,

focus on the good, and do some good.

Later Gators

Z