Wednesday, January 24, 2018

Warning Not A Fun Post, But It Improves

The first week of September this saga began.
It's not over.
I'm still on oxygen.
Still having setbacks.
They still don't know.

I have a list of specialists I could/should see.
If I could afford to.

Since I was here last, I had another emergency
run. My Dr had prescribed symbicort for me on 
Monday morning 2 weeks ago.
My first dosage Monday evening, had me
feeling a little nervous.
Tuesday was 2 more doses, each one increasing
the nervousness and now I have a monster headache,
that continues for about 12 hours.
Wednesday's dosage gave me tremors,
scary, panic attack tremors that went on for hours.
So back to emergency.

I'm profoundly allergic to it.

Emergency doc says
"You should stop using" 

My entire life I have avoided meds 
because of sensitivity,
and now I have various Drs prescribing this, that,
 and everything in their arsenal
to try and relieve symptoms.
I like the Drs, but no one knows exactly
 what is going on, so we're playing russian roulette.

Nearly 5 months now
I cannot care for my yard
I cannot clean
I see no one, go no where.
I've had to sleep on my couch for nearly 2 months.
I have yet to take down my Christmas tree!!!
For those who know me, follow me,
you know how organized I am, how tidy I am,
you know I'm miserable just looking around.


Now having said that, there are many
in the world truly suffering from horrific trials.
So I slapped myself upside the head,
took off my self pity mask,
and decided 
to don a positive beret.

Due to the craziness of the holidays I had not done
my annual donations. To be honest, I just plain
forgot due to my focus on me. Not good

I corrected that today.
10% of my income (which granted, is small)
each and every year.
You cannot help everything and everyone,
so you have to make tough choices.
Here's what I decided a few years back.
I select five from five groups.

Medical Research/ Facility
Positive Political Action

Deep breath, yes, I can still do those.

My world is back in balance
It does not matter that this is the growing pile
of items to be sold. It is 7 columns deep.
I drag my portable O/2 out to the garage
 for five minutes and grab boxes, close my heart to 
the doubt and throw on the pile.

Sale in March

BTW Any American Girl collectors out there?
I have the retired Christmas tree/ornaments in orig box for sale.
Hannah never set it up, she didn't even open all the packages.
None of my local gals desire, so leave me a comment,
and I'll get back to you with pics and info.
I'm selling for half of the prices listed on E-bay.

It's all good 
Well no, there is a lot VERY wrong
in our world but just for now,
focus on the good, and do some good.

Later Gators


Tuesday, January 2, 2018

This Too

Talented Tom

Standing Rib Roast with Brussels and Bacon 
Ben's first Yorkshire Pudding
He would have preferred making 
something else challenging but he knows
it's mama's favorite Christmas dinner 

Ben's first Fresh Mozzarella
We'll be making this again for sure!

(Looks like a bra cutlet hehe)

Happy New Year Chickadees!
I dragged my o2 tank to the market today.