Thursday, January 3, 2019

Grateful and Glorious


(Ben and Helene on the second half of their holiday in NYC)

I have stared at this white space for awhile now; usually it
just pours out without filter.

Fully describing the Christmas holiday
 is nearly impossible
for me this year.

The kids and grand-dogs arrived a few hours before 
my brother and SIL and we all began the festivities
on Friday the 21st around noon.

It did not stop until the last car and flight left.
Remember I have not spent a Christmas 
with my brother Scott since I was 21, 
and there were often 10 years between any visits.
 Many of those were trips home for me
 when my folks were quite ill.
As adults we had very little interaction,
or time together. 

There simply are no words.
My kids loved them, they loved my kids.
We cooked and cooked and did dishes 
and started it all over, each and every day.
We played games and looked 
at vintage Rennie family photos. 
Scott told them stories that I had forgotten,
and reminded them what their grandparents were like,
since my kids barely knew them.
He helped them understand 
where their Mom came from,
since Ben was only in PA when he was 5 
and Hannah was in utero.

I became a weeping willie, 
tears flowing at the drop of a hat.
I was/am so grateful for these days.
My SIL Crystal and I were sorority sisters, 
we've known each other since we were 17.
Lots of memories and drinking stories there. ahem
These two knew me as a child, a teen. 
They were there as my life
unfolded long before my children's births.
Important stuff.

I know I'm typing words here,
but I keep stopping as the images flow.
Scott fell in love with grand-dog David 
and the feeling was mutual as you can see.
They are cat people but maybe?



I had a list of repairs needed and Ben, Tom and Scott
fixed everything and installed electronics. 
What an incredible gift that was.
One was an exterior light that had been broken for 20 years!
Another was my microwave handle, broken off years ago, 
glued and re-glued till it was hopeless,
and since then I had opened it with a spatula 
stuck up into the bottom of the door!


Tom and Scott working on the door


Aunt Crystal made this cross stitch for Hannah's birth. 
We took a pic to reminisce 28 years later.

Darling daughter painted an old barn on canvas for me,
and Dearest son Ben gave me my 
own oldgreymare website, which will be up and running 
as soon as I learn how. I will be able to have a shop on line,
yahoo, so stay tuned.

Scott and Crystal gave my kids mementos from my folks,
such precious memories.

By now it all had me full out bawling.
I love all these folks so much.

I am blessed beyond imagination,
and so grateful for this family.

Happy New Year to all of you.










Tuesday, December 4, 2018

A Holiday Evening








The house is prepped and nearly ready.
I will do a final clean a day or so before
anyone arrives.
The exterior will get minimal attention this year.
I have to adjust to changing circumstances.
Now all I need is my family.

Thank you for all the well wishes for Howie.
The new meds he received Sunday have provided 
much needed relief and I hope a biopsy will
not be needed after all.

My antibiotics and meds are free
 but each of his have been at least 60 each?
I pay 134 to medicare but his insurance would be 230?

another crazy factoid of America - √√


Monday, December 3, 2018

Christmas 2018
















merry merry my friends


Sunday, December 2, 2018

Studio Supply Sale

It is time to downsize the studio
and since so many of you are creative
folks I thought I would see if any of you
might like some of these items:

I tried putting this on my other blog but
discovered I no longer can use. Surprise!
I haven't used since 2011 so no wonder I guess.
If there is enough interest 
 I may set up future links and pay pal button,
as there is a mountain of supplies looking
for new homes.

sorry us mail only
paypal or check

Email me (in profile) if you wish to purchase an item,
or leave me a comment and I'll get back to you.

Also let me know if you wish to receive direct
emails concerning future supplies I am selling.

 1.Collection of flash cards   SOLD

So many wonderful things to do with these,
but I have to draw the line somewhere.

Each word is in
both upper and lower case
180 plus words in the stacks alone
See second pic of word stacks

$120 for all plus 10.00 shipping
(check ebay prices ouch!)




Some longer versions

punctuation


Misc



2. Netty Le Croix Patterns  SOLD

Although exterior pkgs are slightly ruffled
the patterns inside are untouched.
I loved her designs.
Primitive Heaven

All 7 for 28.00 includes shipping


Finally got rid of last remaining large piece 
of furniture by listing it on-line. A huge armoire.
 It went to a lovely young couple 
who just bought their first house
 and they own only a chair and a mattress
on the floor. SO glad it went to them.
I gave it to them for free once they arrived- surprise!
Merry Christmas!

Now to decorate the LR tree and finish up yard 
cleanup and I may be ready just in time. 
19 days to go.

I sold these two items- stay tuned for more
as I grind through the mountain. Thank you

Monday, November 26, 2018

Lots Of Fala


and some lalala too



First fire in fireplace



Paying attention? The deer changed






What normally is a one day decorating 
affair is dragging out,
due to "issues" but I am determined.
Photos of living room tree etc coming 
in a few days. All the packages are wrapped
and stockings hung but tree is not decorated
but it is up.


Of course I was due for another 
Urgent Care run on Saturday.
Another bronchial infection. I've been so careful.
Only went into crowds one day last weekend
with pal Sue for our annual IKEA day.
She reminded me I became ill last year 
right after IKEA day.
Perhaps I will only go to IKEA in summertime?


Michigan blueberry maple streusel toast
with real butter and earl grey
New favorite mug and butter keeper.
comfort food


Went with some lighter fare for kitchen and  
laundry hall this year. Cheerful
Yep, wreath is hanging crooked. 
Original hanger was put on improperly,
(on list to fix).





Thursday, November 22, 2018

Gluttony and Gobble



I'll say it again, I love them so much!

(check it out)

Happy Thanksgiving!

I will spare you my opinion on how $#@^&%
up this holiday is as we are celebrating a lie;
so "Happy Get Together" with your families 
and let the political and religious fall out begin,
and maybe just maybe, share with the young ones the truth 
about the native americans and pilgrims,
as in school they still teach the lies and make
 cute pilgrim hats.

Have the kids pull out their phones and google it
and then share with the adults,
many of whom won't know the story either. 

Ready Set Gluttony 

Wednesday, November 14, 2018

It's Beginning




I was talking to several friends yesterday 
and we were all beginning to decorate, 
much earlier than usual.

My arm chair psychology?

We all need the happy.
We desperately need to immerse ourselves
in the celebration of peace and love
instead of the anger, hatred and despair
surrounding us due to one evil demagogue,
bathed in bigoted stupidity,
who thumbs up his best buddy,
 an assassin, who is intent on 
bringing down our democracy.

Bring on the trees, the holly
 the cookies, stockings,
and twinkle lights. 
Surround us with families and friends we love.
Share the carols, the hymns and 
shout it from the rooftops
that we yearn for peace, equality, kindness and love.













Tuesday, November 6, 2018

COLD AND HARD

VOTE

Not voting while you have the freedom to do so
is an unforgivable act as far as I'm concerned. 
 Millions have died and continue to die  
for the right to be free and to be free from persecution. 
Millions in the world right now
yearn to vote, to choose futures for their children.

This caravan that 45 
is fear-mongering contains just such folks.
Common sense says people who are walking 
thousands of miles and have left everything behind
 and are carrying their children on their backs
 are desperately yearning
for freedom and a safe place to be.

Cold Hard facts.
We may not have most of our freedoms
for very much longer. 
Do not for one second think it cannot
happen here, the groundwork has been in the 
works for decades and this insane 45
is allowing it into the core of government
 and we need to elect people 
who will PROTECT 
and ensure the continuation of our founding
fathers values that have made this democracy work.
Please View

It's short about 7 minutes

Notice George Washington, 
the American flag hanging with the NAZI flag
young boys dancing gleefully
as a protester is beaten and stripped, 
attacking the free press...
Look and sound familiar?

From the Smithsonian about the film:
"It really illustrated that the tactics of demagogues have been the same throughout the ages. They attack the press, using sarcasm and humor. They tell their followers that they are the true Americans (or Germans or Spartans or…). And they encourage their followers to “take their country back” from whatever minority group has ruined it.”
I am resisting
 I am scared shitless
for my kids and yours.







Tuesday, October 30, 2018

Pretty Much Sums Things Up



David My Grand Dog 
sums it up pretty well for me
these days.

Bleah

He often rests like this 
in his back yard
in complete surrender.

I refuse to surrender but I am 
very tired of fighting the good fight.

Knowing it will take me twice as long to decorate
this year due to my limitations;
and knowing it's a special holiday with
my brother and SiL coming for first time and also both
significant others coming with kids, I've decided
to start in about a week. 
Will try to remember to show the projects
as they happen.

But first it is yard work.
The guy who helped me last Spring is unavailable
so it's me doing it in 20 minute spurts.
We've past the year mark since the saga
began and I find no cause to celebrate
that damn milestone. 

I think mentally I'm also bogged down in concern
for our country and the state of the world
in general. I remind myself of my grandparents living
through World Wars and ponder how that generation
persevered with far more dignity than we 
are showing. 

Of course the c-pap story continues 
to unfold. I made it 5 1/2 hours last night
with 3 breaks coughing myself awake,
but they still sent me an 
email congratulations badge this morning.
(they monitor me)
Seriously?
This is what adults need today?
Social media has created needy little buggers
needing constant affirmation.

I don't require congratulations.
I need Drs who can figure out what the hell
is wrong and fix it.

Ok I'm not bleah, I'm bitchy.
sorry


Wednesday, October 24, 2018

Howie Versus Squirrel

The squirrel won


Howie and I just returned from CA.
We spent several days visiting
 with the kids and eating wonderful
meals prepared by Ben.
Lot of laughs, a rousing game of Obama Llama;
hilarious fun, and it was 
Stoddards versus non Stoddards.
We crushed em

Howie somehow scratched his eye again.
Infection set in that I saw at 2 am before 
leaving for LA at 3 am.
Run to Hannah's vet as soon as I arrived.
I'd been up for 36 hours and I was babbling.
$$$$$$
again- sigh

Many discussions about my future, 
and where to live, move and 
when and how to afford.
It's dizzying and distressing. 

I am thrilled they want me there, 
but it's almost a
frozen with fear thing.

Wishing dozens of times 
that my dad was alive to 
advise me. 

Thursday I get my c-pap mask,
or at least an attempt to 
be fitted for one.
I am 0 and 2 so far.

Did you win the 1.6 billion dollars?
We didn't

Wednesday, October 17, 2018

On My MInd




I'm a skeptical gal until I research something,
or until the facts are right smack in my face.

Last year 34 million Americans got the flu,
900,000 were hospitalized, 
and nearly 80,000 died.
As most of you know, the flu,
 on top of a severe bronchial infection
nearly took me out last December
Several ER runs and stays and
4 Urgent Care visits and 10 months 
later we're still working on the damage.

There were 180 pediatric related deaths,
the majority unvaccinated,
 and many were healthy.
Less than 50 % of pregnant women 
get the shot,
and they do not do well
 if they get the flu and the baby 
can have severe lasting issues.

I never ever got the flu and I never got a flu shot.
I never had my kids get shots.

I WAS WRONG!!!!

Most insurance gets you the shot for free,
and if not, I know there are free places to go 
like health districts.

I had 0 yes, zippo side effects.
I also never got a pneumonia shot.

Pneumonia landed me in ER last Spring also.
Seriously, how WRONG could I be?

Yep, got that shot also.

I just asked kids to get shots, 
I hope they listen.
It takes 2 weeks to receive fullest protection
and the
 BEST TIME TO GET IS
BEFORE NOV 1st

If you are over 65 be sure to get the high dose 
vaccine unless your Dr says otherwise,
and of course consult your Dr to be sure 
you can safely get the shot.
There are some who cannot,
so we should protect them from catching it from us!

I had to go to four places until 
I found one that had the high dose,
it's going fast here. They all offered me the lower dose,
which is wrong for me.

It's your social responsibility to get
vaccinated to protect those around you,
family, friends, co-workers, 
young ones in your life, the elderly in your life
and even those already compromised strangers
that you spend 10 seconds near in Target. 

Ok stepping down from my soap box now.
I know that if I had read this last season 
and listened and believed I
might have avoided a lot of trouble and suffering.

If I keep even one of you healthy
it's worth a yawn of a post,
cause I love you guys.

Z



Monday, October 15, 2018

I Don't Do Spooky

Sunday I was searching for a photo
 for a friend who was over
for the day
and I stumbled across these.
(never did find the other photo I wanted)

I started making advents like these many moons ago.
This happened to be an all day class I taught
maybe 7? years ago and  it was
 a great class. Everyone's 
advent came out unique and pretty,
or as scary as they wished.
It was a long day painting backgrounds, 
cutting and sewing and I'm pretty sure I 
served my classic Halloween chili.


Everything but the spiders and the web
were made by hand,
and each student painted 
their background as they wished.








The house was hand cut and assembled


Everyone who knows me knows I always get a pinwheel in somehow


The bats were on wires so they could bounce (fly)



There is a string garland inside the little painted box



I had forgotten how many pumpkins
 I used to make each season.
They have homes all over the country.
A sampling...