Saturday, September 10, 2016

Not So Easy Come, Easy Go

I have spent the last few years on a major purge,
so adding anything new into the house
seemed to be, well, just wrong. 
I had watched this bamboo rug for several years and when 
I saw it at a great price several weeks ago, 
I jumped.
It helped that it was 3 am and I couldn't sleep.
I have a lot of that honey or maple color
in the western areas of the room so this "pulled" it 
to the other end.
Although several hundred things have departed
my abode, I'm still debating the wisdom of this addition.
DD and friends have given a thumbs up,
but Howie does not approve. 
It makes noise when he walks on it, 
so he won't. He does this shuffle to the left 
that is adorable.
It is easy for me to let the old go,
hard to let the new in.
If I had a shrink, 
they might say, hmmmm
expand on that.


Friday, September 9, 2016

While I Was Sleeping

Thursday, September 8, 2016

Simply Greens

Simple greens from TJ's in my mom's 
favorite mustard pitcher
Embracing greens and mustard today
Hurry fall

Friday, September 2, 2016

Mysterious Class

Time for another class at 


October 1st

Cones, Door hangers, Advent, Gift Cards/Tags
We'll be making it all!
See you there?


Wednesday, August 31, 2016

Friday, August 26, 2016

Getting Jiggy With It

Convinced that my brain was beginning to atrophy.
I began various attempts to challenge the synapsis
and keep them in excellent firing capacity.

I tried crosswords for a couple of years
 until I went crosseyed.
Then came sudoku which found me 
doing just a numbered crossword of sorts.

Image result for sudoku puzzles

So addicting was sudoku that
 after a couple years, I spent 
 a couple days doing
nothing but sudoku, and I had to 
enter a rehab program.

Soon I was forgetting movie stars names,
and how to subtract, and I quickly searched
for mental health answers.

I found -
drumroll please-

(didn't I mention this before?)

and yes I have an addiction problem once more.
They're a cheap brown bowl of bar peanuts.
I started with the 100 pieces with an initial 
self set goal of 
completing a puzzle within 20 minutes.
Giving my mouse clicking 
and dragging skills a major workout,
I was soon at 12 minutes and this week
most have been done in under 9 minutes.

Whether or not my brain is less likely to atrophy
because of it remains to be seen.
The lightbulb moment this morning was
my issue may really be avoidance.

I need to create new projects to teach,
repaint the garage floor and redo
the entire back yard.
My feet are immersed in cement it seems,

so I push oddly shaped jigsaw pieces 
around on the computer and achieve satisfaction
of accomplishment. But do I really?

Once more, I play mind games with myself.
An hour ago,
I told bloggie pal Carole that 
I was headed up to the studio.

 I had good intention
I swear
Instead I came here.
to visit all of you.

six minutes for 100 piece
seem too difficult?


Sunday, August 14, 2016

ADELE - I Adore You

Words cannot express
the hours spent overwhelmed 
with emotion and joy
at the Adele concert 
last Tuesday evening at the Staples Center.

Her voice is still on a constant loop 
through my mind, six days later.

DD had given me the concert as a Christmas present
and it will go down as a lifetime memory. I could
swoon and attempt to describe but let me just say this.
IF you EVER have the chance to go to an Adele concert...
It means waiting on phone line for over 3 hours, and 
every date is sold out in hours but it is 
worth it so GO!

Adele is gorgeous, chatty, funny and 
remarkably down to earth.
Her voice vibrated up through 
the floor and surrounded us. 
She had me and everyone
else surrounding me, 
all 18,000 of us, in tears.

I drove down to CA early Monday morning,
after teaching a class on Sunday. 
My first time teaching outside my home 
in over a decade.

Some of the girls and just one of their projects.
The 10 women were all lovely and put me at ease 
and I'm excited to do another class soon at 
the brand new store on Eastern,

This CA trip I took
Howie, who had never been in another home before, 
let alone on an over four hour car trip. 
He was fabulous.
He adapted to the lack of a doggie door and trooped
up and down flights of stairs all day long,
 and sat patiently in outdoor restaurants.
He loved it, and was a hit everywhere we went.
Elevators were a bit scary and after a couple rides,
he just started planting his rump down
 and refusing to go.

It felt like we ate our way 
through Culver City, a bit of Beverly Hills, 
and each meal and setting
was wonderful, and outdoors!
Check out this succulent wall
in a restaurant on Wilshire down from DS's office.
The first dinner out they had me downing margaritas
and shooting mescal. I had such a buzz so quickly,
I could tell the kids were getting a kick out of tipsy Mama.

All gushing aside,
it was such a wonderful trip and late each evening we 
hung out at DD's and drank wine and nibbled some more
and talked and talked and talked.
Those kids of mine are incredible.
I am so proud of them.
Both of them have films in a festival this week.

Think I could live here in this studio?
It's across the street from DD's.
it's nearly 3,000 a month.
I know I could live IN it,
but I couldn't live WITH it at that price.
We looked at several places but I would need
to live farther out to afford anything.

I really did enjoy staying in DD's 400 sq feet studio.
Coming home only reinforced for me the excess of
space I have and "things" that I have.
So local gals I feel another major purge 
stirring, so stay tuned.

Laundry and such await me.
This week my brother will be coming 
with a gaggle of his friends.
One of them had comps to a time share,
thus the trip.
I have not seen Scott in 10 years.
I have not lived near him since I was 21.
My two kids are
so close and such good friends,
and share their lives.
I envy that.

Have a great confetti filled week.


Saturday, July 30, 2016

Keep Your Damn Parade Macy's

At times I am terrible at picking up my mail,
especially when it's 112 outside 
 and when I finally do
(at 1 am in my pj's last night)
I remember why.

(stay with me to the end folks)

Because it often ticks me off.
I received a bill yesterday from Macy's for $2
Three months ago I ordered some 
products on line and had a balance of 
95.00 and change. I paid the bill in full, and mailed it 
10 days in advance of the due date.
I received the next month's bill with a 
29.00 late fee (32%) plus a 2.00 balance fee.
I called and never even made it to a living being, 
just an automated voice saying 
"if you are calling about your late fee we will gladly
 remove it from your bill". 
I punched 0 several times until I got a human and 
voiced my displeasure at the policy 
and that I appreciated the removal. 
I was informed I needed to leave 10-14 days
 for processing and that it had been
 "processed 1 day after the due date". 
I said my job was to get it
there on time, it was their job to process
it on time... and I may have commented 
on the lovely way for Macy's to add to their coffers.

Last month I receive a bill for 4.00.
$2 for minimum balance charge of the month before
and another $2 for the current month.
I paid it just to make it go away.
 I know better - I was just not up for an argument,
or I got lazy, or stupid.

Yesterday's bill was another $2 charge 
attached to a bill I paid in full 3 months ago.

NOW I WAS up for an argument.

I got a human,
after an automated voice said
"If you are calling about the $2 charge,
 we will gladly remove it.
I punched 000000000000 

Obviously so many folks call about these charges,
that they automate their answer.
The human I spoke with 
read off Macy's apology from a card.
I know this because she repeated the exact words
 verbatim 3 times at least.
She finished with "because you have a 0 balance there 
is nothing I can remove for you today."

If only half of their customers have 
noticed this sneaky little deal,
 and only half complain, that still leaves
a big bunch of $2 charges being tacked on willy nilly 
each month, especially after claiming we all need to mail
14 days in advance as if the USPS wasn't doing their job.
Pretty clever huh?

We need to pay close attention my friends:
I don't trust the fat dude behind the curtain.

If I hear one more person say
"I don't care about politics"
"I don't "do" politics"
"It's all so corrupt I wash my hands of it all"

I just may scream

No, I know what I'll do instead.

I'll have an automated voice at the ready
"we are sorry for the inconvenience" - 
"We will gladly 
remove all your civil rights, 
 remove your reproductive rights,
remove all attempts to save the planet, 
remove quality education
remove aid to the ill and the poor,
remove health care
remove people due to race and ethnicity
remove the fish from the oceans, the trees
from the forests, the oxygen from the FRICKIN' AIR

deep breath...

Not one of us can afford to be lazy or stupid right now.

Once you have a 0 balance, there 
is nothing more for them to remove.

Pretty floats and balloons cannot
disguise the seriousness of our times.

Keep your damn parade Macy's
I'm marching for a better cause.



Friday, July 22, 2016

Remains Of the Days

This is what remains after two days of binge watching
with My Darling Daughter.
After Best Beau left last weekend she stayed on
through my Birthday, and this very little
tv viewer, mwah, watched 20 episodes of Vampire Diaries
in a day and a half.
She built a pallet of foam and pillows after removing 
the furniture from the den, and we ordered in food,
polished off some wine and some Moscow Mules.

Hannah had begged me to watch for months
 and so over a couple weeks 
I had made it through Seasons 1-5 
and 2 episodes of Season 6 before she arrived. 
She was thrilled. I struggled through Season 1 
not really into it and then like millions of other "girls"
(rolling my eyes here) I fell for 


That bad boy Ian stole my heart
as he vamped his way through
Mystic Falls.

Those of you who desire never to speak me again after
this admission, please know that I do understand.
But oh baby, is this guy ever the bad boy, gotta love em guy.

Season 7 is not on Netflix yet,
but once I can obtain, I will binge once more and 
then actually watch the final season as it airs.

This is embarrassing to admit but if 
Brooke Burke Charvet
can admit to incontinence,
er, I guess she says bladder leakage;
then I can admit to a slight
deviation from "high brow" television..
oh yeah and I also 
do Walking Dead
Game of Thrones
and I did True Blood
anyone sensing a theme?

anyone still speaking to me?


Those of you who judge?
Watched Bachelorette, Duck Dynasty,
Housewives of (pick the city) or the Kardashians lately?

Now that I would NOT do! lol
Enjoy your weekends
with your secret obsessions

Wednesday, July 20, 2016

Studio Retreat

I have retreated to the studio big time.
Blasting a little Kenny Rankin, Alice Peacock,
 One Republic.
Then Eva Cassidy,
Joao Gilberto, Adele, Warwick and
But still loud.

I have struggled back and forth faithful to 
 paper or fabric. Last night
I fiddled with both.

Anything to keep my mind off
the world and it's madness.
Escape Retreat Reflection

Sunday, July 17, 2016


Two of the kids were home last week.
Surprise visit

Darling Daughter and Best Beau
Celebrating their five year anniversary
Now they're off to do films!
Howie was over the moon,
with his best playmate here.

Those crazy two keep so busy.
My personality could not handle it,
but they seem to thrive on it.
The laughter and sweet tender looks 
back and forth gives this mama such joy.
Focus on the good stuff
because the bad stuff is really bad
these days.

How do I hibernate even deeper than 
I already do?


Tuesday, July 5, 2016

Musings and Insanities


The quiet periods seem to be stretching out longer and longer
but that's OK for me and for others doing the same thing.

So here is what has been happening around oldgreymare.

Spent some time working on a new class I'll be teaching
at a brand new store The Paper Bunny.
I met the darling owner Mary when she came to my last
sale and she bought loads of my creations,
some furniture, and then toured the house.
After seeing my paper works in some of the rooms, 
she asked if I would teach. 
Sure enough!

We had a big one here.
Trashed my yard front and back, 
left me piles of hail
that looked like snow drifts and 
scared the daylights out of Howie.

That's hail still on the ground hours later

My driveway and street

Speaking of the pooch..
Once again we were at the vets in an emergency.
This time it was 9 am 
but the fear was just as severe.
He had started bleeding profusely and well,
I feared the worst.
Turned out to be colitis, (they think)
and we did a regime of more pills, more tests, more$$$$.
Bleeding stopped, tests came back fine, and

now we wait.

That's Howie storm sniffing at the fireplace grate.
I never need weather alerts, I have Howie alerts.
Long before the sky darkens, Howie starts the sniffing.

The World

Some days I cannot even bear to watch or read the news.
Insanity reigns.

Hitler's clone is running for our presidency

Trump supporters need to pick up a copy of Mein Kampf . Bet they'll love it

"If you win, you need not have to explain...If you lose, you should not be there to explain!” 

"If you tell a big enough lie and tell it frequently enough, it will be believed.” 

"I use emotion for the many and reserve reason for the few.” 

"The victor will never be asked if he told the truth. ” 

"The very first essential for success is a perpetually constant and regular employment of violence.” 

"Humanitarianism is the expression of stupidity and cowardice.” 

or did you think these were Trump's?

Brexit Regrexit

At least we are not alone in political
idiocy but I find no comfort in that.

Climate catastrophes all over the world.
Gun violence
Folks feeding the fear
I know the world has suffered many dark times,
but I cannot remember a time in my life
where it felt so universally doomed and damned.

I hibernate in the summer anyway
as you all know.
but this year is an extreme.
I was just telling DD 
that I filled the car up with gas on June 26th.
The last time I got gas before that
was April 23rd. 
Two months, one tank.

When you no longer "shop" for entertainment.
When you can walk to the market...
the savings add up.
I've cut my budget by one third in the last year.
I do feel good about that.

And of course I always feel good about the kids.
Dearest Son changed jobs with loads more
opportunity, responsibility, and $$$$ 
He's having a ball in the CA sunshine.

Darling Daughter is constantly working on films, 
often alongside boyfriend Blake. 
They are adorable and happy
and the three of them get together often,
doing crazy stuff like 
moonlight skating

and Mama is thrilled.

Hallelujah - gives me hope

Happy Summer to ya


Thursday, May 26, 2016

Crusty Tattered And Torn

Simple, Soulful, Soothing

Monday, May 16, 2016

And Then We Went Back Sunday Night

Mother's instinct;
cannot explain it, but we
know what we know,
and I am not his mother but
 I knew Howie was just not right.
Although he was walking around 
and waggin' his tail and poopin' and peeing and 
eating and drinking,
this pooch had something wrong.

Sunday night around 9:30
he refused to get out of his bed,
and I was so afraid that if I went up to bed,
in the morning
he might not be with me any longer.

off again driving cross town to the emergency vet.
I opened the door saying
"we're back" to Angela at the desk.
This time he POOPED on  
the door stoop, not even making it into the 
room. A very crowded room of people
found this to be hilarious and of course
Howie was acting like all was well.

After hearing his story, Angela and
several other pet owners weighed in that he was 
just depressed and quite a few believed he 
was having "visions" of a returned ghost Justice....

I hesitated about a second and
even though there were two critical cases
ahead of me, we waited the 3 hours,
(now almost 1:00 am)
the vet found that Howie had hurt his neck
and the behavior was due to pain that came and went.
When he got excited, car trips, vet trips etc
 his adrenalin activated and he pushed through the pain.
I recalled that he refused to use the doggie door
since Friday and the vet and I had an ahah! moment 
of he did not want to lower his neck!
Closer examination and BINGO

Lots and lots of $Benjamins$ later we came home
 and within a couple hours of meds he jumped on the couch
for the first time in three days,
and went into a deep dopey sleep.
I started weeping I was so relieved.

They advised I keep him off the stairs,
 and keep an eye on him,
since he would be "high"
so I slept (barely) on the couch.
This morning he is following me everywhere,
and very active in between pills.
I'm exhausted 
or the word of the weekend 
and now I have a stiff neck from couch.

Ghost Justice watches over him
and we'll both be sleeping the day away.
I am so grateful.

Saturday, May 14, 2016

Saturday 2:00 A.M. Scare

Upon my return from the market 
early Friday afternoon Howie 
greeted me in his usual way jumping 
and twirling and begging for treats.

I had found some new organic Bakery brand 
treats and gave him two.
(sweet potato and carrots healthy crap ya know)

He and I then took naps and later in the 
day I noticed he was walking and acting funny.
It turned very hot here in lala land
and I thought he was panting and 
being lethargic because of the heat.

He slept for hours and then around 10pm
 he seemed to rally a bit and jumped 
on the couch with me. 

Hours later as he jumped down he whimpered 
and then he really began to act
completely out of character.
By 1:30 a.m. I knew I could not wait and loaded
him into the car for a run to the all night
emergency vet. 
I was weeping the whole way over thinking
I cannot do this again, not so soon after losing Justice.
how will I ever tell Hannah?
how will I ever afford more vet bills?

As we got out of the car he perked up a little
and was wagging his tail again.
The gal at the reception desk unlocked the door,
as they had been waiting for me, and Howie
charged into the room



The gal looked at me, and then at the 
pile and said

As soon as he was finished 
he jumped all over the girls 
and explored the entire facility.
I meekly inquired...
"so he was just constipated?"

Howie and fiber have issues?

Bless those girls they did not charge me, 
and be grateful
I'm not sharing a photo.

I'm too old for this shit...
or Howie shit..