Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Aw phooey

Even when things are going well,
life can be challenging now and again.
That is where I am now.
I am blessed and healing and 
doing fine, yet struggling to make 
all the pieces fit.

I took 19 shots at the ribbon class and each one
 came out looking like an experiment in photography,
and not in the good way.
This time I was not only host but student, and my 
head was going off in fifty directions.
If you wish to see and read about it,
Tanya, bless her heart, got some good shots.

bead and needle 
 See more HERE

Carole is an amazing instructor and we had 
a blast. As soon as all my Christmas is down,
(will that ever happen? jeez!)
 I plan to practice my roses, so that I am
 prepared to take Ribbon 102.

So what has me discombobulated?
Everything.
I will get it straightened out and ease into
my new routine, and figure out how to get by,
 but for now I am concentrating
on necessities and not so much on the extras.
I am still reading each of you my dear friends,
never fear, and following your adventures.

I think what bothers me most is 
that I used to be "quick on my feet", able to adjust 
in a nanosecond . Now I need more time. 
I need to process.
I need to grieve losses. I need more sleep.
So is this it? The age thing? As I approach one of those
mysterious "old age" numbers, is this my mind saying
WHOA NELLIE!
Not so fast, you're an old girl now,
you might sprain something.

aw phooey.
I probably just need more fiber.
z


37 comments:

www.MaisonStGermain.com said...

Now what did I miss? Did you get hurt???You are sooooo not old! My God, you are always so active and creative and doing things. I hope you are well. Sending you hugs and prayers. They'll help! I'm sure of it.
~Debra xxx
Capers of the vintage vixens

Bead and Needle said...

Phooey, I say! And, I call "Shenanigans" on the old age idea, also...you ROCK, Z, and don't you forget it! Have a great day - XOXO

Carolynn Cecilia said...

It's not age lady! It's just life. I'm the same way. Sometimes our minds and bodies just need a rest. Some downtime to think things through, process events, recoup empathy and so on. Take your time to meet your needs.

Theresa said...

ditto to Tanya's comment!
but fiber has been know to help :)
t.xoooxoxox

Low Tide High Style said...

Now those flowers are just breathtaking!!! And we all slow down a little, but then we get a boost and keep going, strong as ever. The cycles of life I suppose.

Kat :)

Mugwump Woolies said...

Hi Z...

Suzan, you are a "giver" as oppose to a taker. Givers hit the wall sometime. Take some time for just you.
I think January is the month when a lot of us feel a little let down. Hibernate a little...it's good for the soul.
Robyn

Herzduett Rosarot said...

It`s so beautiful! Greatings from Germany, Kerstin

Beatnheart said...

HANG TIGHT KID...love the ribbons! I’m doing my first online course in mixed media...enjoying v.much...expanding this year...making it to da big time.. take care happy 2012...Cynthia

Linda @ A La Carte said...

You are singing my song! I need much more rest after activity and 8 hours of sleep at least. I love to learn new things but it does take me longer to get it sometimes. Still I think for 61 I'm doing great and moving along. Hang on and enjoy the ride! Hugs, Linda

My Grama's Soul said...

Oh My Z.....when I first read this I thought you had been
ill or had a serious mishap....glad to see it is only life's happenings that is bogging you down.

Miss you.....see you soon I'm sure.

Jo

Jacqueline said...

I know I keep rabbiting on at you Z, but I think it's just change. Let it go...let it flow...let it be. We are all the better for it in the end...the ride, a first is a bit bumpy!
And as for more fiber...never hurts!

Kathy said...

If it is any consolation, you are not alone. Energy is the only place where I feel my age. I find that I still have the same energy, I just can't sustain it as long. But the enthusiasm inside my mind is the same as ever so I disappoint myself when my body can't keep up with my mind. My word for this year is "tranquil" and my goal is all about getting my mind and my body to agree with each other!

Debbie said...

I just hit the big 58 on New Years day...feeling a little aged. Seems like health issues are the new "thing" for me....but I'll keep going if you will.
I think of myself as a bottle of aged to perfection wine...perfect in everyway....HA, and then I woke up!!!
Maybe it's a good thing we slow down as we "age". Gives us time to "smell those roses".
Happy New Year!
xxxooo

Claudia said...

We all get overwhelmed at times and are forced to slow down. I don't think it has anything to do with aging, really. There's only so much a person can take in at once, time is needed to process and work through things. Be gentle with yourself.

xo
Claudia

Razmataz said...

I flap around and flip form thing to thing...all the time. I need loads of time to Process stuff...and often have to re-process.....and I am constantly disconblobulated.....so you see..you are normal....Wait, maybe I'm not!

Linda said...

I say Phooey on old age too!! I happen to think the ribbon flowers look pretty great...I love the pansy!

Carole said...

I know you are old grey mare but you are not old. It will all work out when you figure it out in your head.
It's all good.

x
C

Theanne said...

I'm not sure needing more time to process what is happening in your life...means you're old! I've been coming over off and on for a while now...and I've never felt you were old, still don't! Need time/take time!

Olive Cooper said...

Have you had your labs checked recently? Thyroid disease, hypothyroid in particular could really cause fatigue. Or even anemia. Sorry Z, sometimes my RN self pops out. Wishing you rest and wellness.

jeanne@juNxtaposition said...

Dont worry, it comes and goes....with age..you have good days, and not so good days...chin up girl !

(nice touch..this little note here...about no reply..i like that !)

erin said...

life is filled with ups and downs...like the "roller coaster" that the grandma from the movie "Parenthood" talks about....take the ride.....ups AND downs.

we are riding with you, dahling.
erin
xxoo

Jacqueline @ HOME said...

Oh Z,
You do far more than me and seem to have the energy of a 20 year old !! All you need to do is re charge your batteries and off you will go again. We all need to take a rest now and again and then we are off again !
..... and, I cannot get over how beautiful those ribbon pansies are. You lot are just too clever !
Thanks so much for your comment today. The fireworks were the best we have EVER done. I think that it's because we are hosting the Olympics and they wanted to put on a good show.
Keep well, put your feet up and just take a little time for yourself.It will do you the world of good. XXXX

Blondie's Journal said...

I'll go with a lack of fiber. You are one of the most energetic and creative people I know...your roses are gorgeous. Don't be so hard on yourself. I think we become wiser as we get older, but we do have "days", just like everyone. Hang in there.

XO,
Jane

Jillayne said...

Aren't Wheaties supposed to be the Breakfast of Champions?
New routines come easy when you aren't attached to the old ones - at least that's what I tell myself... the older I get the less efficient I feel - or something like that...
You do amazing things, and from what I can see, do them well. And if fibre doesn't help, eat chocolate and fogetta bout it!

Lana said...

Z, just briefly...You are not alone in this! That may not be any consolation, but I think it is true. And sometimes things hit us like a slap in the face when we least expect it...Just give yourself those "whoa Nellie" moments (I say that, too!)and go with it! Perhaps your RN buddy may be on to something, too. I would love to write more to you personally, but don't want to drag the rest of the crowd into my back alley! :) Wishing you some special peace today in your spirit... You certainly lift the rest of us.

Marcela para Colorin Colorado said...

OLD???? Are you kidding??? I think vintage is enough!!! and you know what? Vintage Chicks Rule!!!!

Don't you worry vintage girl, it comes and goes...

Cindy said...

You have a lot on your plate right now. I have never seen anyone do as much as you do in such little time! Just remember to breathe and everything will fall into place. It is hard when things aren't going as smooth as you want them too. Last year kicked my behind in lots of ways, but It is what it is...You are doing great and I hope that you are feeling much better!! (I took your word "grace" for my word this year..helps me to remember to take in all in stride...) and I think we all need more fiber LOL...

time worn interiors said...

I have been going through some of the same things lately! Today I'm really dragging, but I haven't had a day off in almost three weeks! Maybe that has something to do with the way we are feeling, what do you think! I know you are just like me you go all the time! I was so tired today I just had to take the day off. My brain wouldn't even work!

So glad you are feeling better!

tot

Donna said...

Hi Z!
I am sorta back from the land of lost myself!
I have so much to catch up on and I too am a bit lost...sorry!
Is it the flowers you are struggling with (NO way...not you!)
Is it just life in general? If this be the case...you are not alone, slide over and make room at the table girl!
Hugs from here
Donna

Susan said...

Boy oh boy are we in the same boat!

Faded Charm said...

I can relate to how you're feeling lately as well. I never used to be like this.....what's going on???

Best wishes.

xoxo
Kathleen

June said...

I've kindda lost it here myself lately Z. I am not sure if I'm coming or going yet, but I think I am going.
I wonder why this holiday season was so crazy, but it was. I really fell behind and I am slow to catch up.
I'm off on a little road trip tomorrow, as Dale thinks I need time off, and my daughter thinks she needs me to redecorate her house NOW!
I know you will find your center again soon.
love from me...

A Cottage Muse said...

Take one day at a time the way you want to...I think when you "allow" yourself to do that it all works out!
xo

Rebecca said...

Hi Sweetie
I have been thinking of you... how is the new job going? That takes a lot out of you and then being sick on top of all you did for Christmas... you just need to coast for awhile. Let's face it the energy thing keeps sliding down hill as we go up hill...
Blessings
RE

Romeo said...

I'm not sure what number comment I am, but I DO know that the list of sympathizers is a wee bit long. So it would seem my dear friend of doggies and kitties, that you are no alone on this start-and-stop adventure. Nope. Not at all. And you still have your sense of humor - THAT will pull you through or maybe today just pull you along. Be sure the rope is attached to the wrist and not the neck ;)

Hugs and Purrs,

"Her" and your favorite cat, Romeo

Bohemian said...

Even though you had me LOL I can totally relate to all of the challenges you presented! I'm there right now in fact, right along with you... and adjusting and acceptance isn't all it's cracked up to be. *Winks* So I'm in a Senior Rebellion of sorts, just like when we were Teenagers rebelling against whatever we weren't happy about and wanted to change RIGHT NOW, but with less angst. *Smiles* May you soon be receiving a complete Healing Touch and youthful exhuberance to each step of your Journey.

Blessings from the Arizona Desert... Dawn... The Bohemian

Pooch Purple Reign said...

i think the uncomfortable times in life are the ones that really stand out.
at least for me, this is true.
embrace it and roll with it girl !
all the best for a rockin 2012
~laura xx